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I'm thrilled that you're here and welcome to Heartpouring.xyz! My name is Elizabeth and this is my husband Todd. Since the early months of 2020 when the "Beer Virus" came crashing onto the scene like a tsunami - “Corona” flipped life upside down and sent humanity spiraling down the Covid 19 rabbit hole. The loss has been great, the impact far reaching...
It is in this darkness that Heartpouring.xyz and Heartpouring.com were born.
Just a few months ago on March 27, 2021 a 105.5 fever and the "Beer Virus" (Covid 19) hit my life with force that I never saw coming! I got Covid from one of my coworkers and two weeks later when I was rushed to the hospital on oxygen. I was only there for a few days which is much shorter than so many others who have been in ICU and never made it home to their families after such severe complications. Time stood still and in those moments and days in the hospital somehow I knew that my life was never going to be the same...I just didn't know why.
I've learned the hard way that the key to everything is balance. I've sacrificed many things to focus on my career because after all, sacrifice now was supposed to be the seeds that become the harvest of my future! So I have spent many years putting my heart on hold and living to convince myself that I will do the things that I am passionate about later once I have accomplished "XYZ" - hence this site. But the real question is, "Would I?"
I like to believe I would. I'll be the first to admit that my life has derailed more times than I can count and there have been many ground zeros where the only way I could see "rock bottom" was to look up! I could give myself every reason, excuse and justification to dismiss my hopes and dreams but the truth is that the only one who can stop me is me. I know that I am here for a reason, and as long as there is breath in my lungs and my heart is still beating, I am passionate about making a difference.
I am determined to share my hearts gifts, talents, testimonies, struggles and victories that have made me who I am. Otherwise, what good are all of those things if I am just a collector of my own experiences? Those unshared gifts and experiences become mere trophies collecting dust on the shelves within my mind, and reminders of the memories that have been stored deep within a vault somewhere within the fabric of my heart. Does it matter how far I have come or where I am now in comparison to where I was when "XYZ" happened in my life if I just reminisce about it rather than doing whatever it takes to share my heart and life?
I felt Hope and Love fanning the flames of inspiration inside my heart, and as I lay in the hospital wrapped In the blanket of darkness and uncertainty I felt the light of Love and Hope strengthening me! It is the heart and love of my husband and Heavenly Father who continue walking every step with me, encouraging me and reminding me that it won't always be this way.
Love is the only One stronger than the darkness and I take heart for Jesus has overcome the world! John 16:33
Since returning home from the hospital in April, I've faced a much longer than expected recovery. Instead of celebrating my 7 year anniversary with our agency, I was fired and my position was actually eliminated so that there was nothing to go back to. When I was fired, the devastation was 2 fold because my in a single swoop my business "family" and relationships came to an end. That was the last thing I needed, but the memory of being back at work too soon and being rushed to the hospital in total respiratory failure has been a very effective reminder to let my body heal and not rush the process again.
I knew I had a choice to make: I could give myself permission to recover OR…let fear drive the painful emotions that send me spinning on another hamster wheel of life. Even though it has been hard, I chose to say "thank you for the "promotion" and keep trusting God because none of this is a surprise to him and I know he's got me!
I may not know what is going to unfold beyond this, but I believe with all of my heart that it is better than good...it is Grand because that is who God is and He will never allow one door to close without already having another already waiting to walk through! With that, I have allowed myself to heal and recover because the best is yet to come and I know I am worth it!
My husband Todd and I are excited to share our stories and experiences with you - get ready to share our straight up crazy-reality birthed along every path, twisted turn, and every road that first led us to each other and now to you! God bless you and please subscribe so you don't miss a moment of everything that is in store!